a lesson learned's Journal

10:32pm: Taken a picture naked?
yes

Made out with a member of the same sex?
yes

Danced in front of your mirror?
yes

Told a lie?
yes

Gotten in a car with people you just met?
yes

Been in a fist fight?
yes

Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
yes

Been arrested?
No

Left your house without telling your parents?
yes

Ditched school to do something more fun?
yes

Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?
yes

Seen someone die?
no

Kissed a picture?
yes

Slept in until 3?
yes

Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?
yes

Played dress up?
yes

Fallen asleep at work/school?
yes

Felt an earthquake?
yes

Touched a snake?
yes

Ran a red light?
yes

Had detention?
yes

Been in a car accident?
yes

Pole danced?
no

Been lost?
yes

Sang karaoke?
yes

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?
yes

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
no

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
no

Kissed in the rain?
yes

Sang in the shower?
yes

Got your tongue stuck to a pole?
no

Ever gone to school partially naked?
no

Sat on a roof top?
yes

Played chicken?
no

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
yes

Been told you're hot by a complete stranger?
yes

Broken a bone?
yes

Mooned/flashed someone?
yes

Forgotten someone's name?
yes

Slept naked?
yes

Blacked out from drinking?
no

Played a prank on someone?
yes

Felt like killing someone?
yes

Made a parent cry?
yes

Cried over someone?
yes

Had sex more than 5 times in one day?
no

Had/Have a dog?
yes

Been in a band?
no

Drank 25 sodas in a day....aka POP?
no

Shot a gun?
yes

4:29pm: it's been a long time coming
So i'm jamaican again (have a million jobs)... i nanny on the weekends, work curves on tuesdays, tutor almost everyday and take care of a little girl on thursday nights... plus i go to school full-time with a completely academic schedule.. no artsy fartsy classes for me this semester. But even though it's a lot i some how manage to find time for my boy and my friends and after all that i squeeze in a couple hours of sleep. I was at smc yesterday from 9am to 10pm studying and going to class... but i got a shit load of work done, so that's good. My classes are ok... not really looking forward to giving a speech in a couple of weeks but that's life and i really need to get over my fear. My motorcycle training course is soooo close i can almost taste it... tastes like grease and tire tracks...mmmmmmmm. After talking to Erin the other day it made me want to go back up to san fran. I can't wait until I permanently relocate. But i will miss my ella and my lau lau a lot lot. I have to have minor surgery next week to make sure i don't have skin cancer.... great. Just what I need. It's probably not, but it's still scary to think about. I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world who fucking cleaned my entire room this morning just because. And he brings me new roses when the old ones have died. We had such a fun time a Lauren's birthday last friday night.. dressing up is always fun. Hung out with Becky and Easton on saturday night which was great... I like catching up on all the latest. And right now I am at curves bored out of my mind listening to the phrase "change stations now" every 30 seconds... i think my mind is melting. ahhhhh.

yeah that's about it.

9:23am: </a>


hehe... the hair is perfect! lc. i love you!

9:06pm: haven't updated in awhile. i guess that's because lj is slowly dying and myspace is taking over the world. anyways, school is good, only like 2 more weeks to go and then i'll start spring semester, and work is still just as amazing. my boy and i are official and officially in love and i really couldn't be happier. it's just nice to have someone in my life who's spontaneous and in a good mood all of the time and is a real gentleman. i really should change my icon because i have very short hair now (although i need a haircut bad b/c i feel like i have a mullet). lc is my sister from another mother and we have wayyyy to much fun being bad (in the best way of course). i'm tired of people's bullshit and i'm trying to keep my resolution (i'm working out everyday) and keeping the drama out of my life. i'm gonna buy a motorcycle and i'm gonna be bad ass.... wait.... i'm already bad ass, it'll just be icing on the cake. and i'm jumping out of a plane on sunday. yeah, that pretty much sums it up.

9:18am: lung butter.... ewwww gross!
so i'm in day 2 of being sick and it absolutely sucks ass! at least i have a wonderful boy who has esp and texts me right as i'm thinking of him in the middle of the night. things have been good other than the sickness. school is almost done (but not really cause i only get a two week break) and my job rocks my socks. i love you lau.. thanks for always being there for me... u da best!

12:02pm: yeah for this semester being almost done!
yeah for xmas soon!
yeah for my totally awesome friends (even though I hardly get to see you)!
yeah for cute boys with mohawks!
yeah for my bestest buddy in the whole world!
yeah for my amazing job!
yeah for having money in the bank!

YEAH FOR ME!!!!

I guess what I am trying to say is that life is good and I'm happy...

3:47pm: so i have been officially single for a month now and i guess it's been good. i met a new guy and we've been dating but i've come to the realization that guys are just fucking confusing (especially when they're really hot) and i guess the only relationship i can count on 100% is with my car, gogo. she's my lesbain lover and i spend more time with her than anyone else. i didn't work at all this weekend because my boss and i both got sick and we don't want the baby getting sick. it sucks though because xmas is coming and i need $$$. went to rocky last night which was really fun and lauren was the sexiest trixie ever. i'm so thankful that lauren lives so close because it's made us that much closer. i've also been spending a lot of time with erin w which has been awesome. my new job rocks and this school semester is almost over which i'm excited about. i cut off all my hair too which i love (keira rocked it like a badass... i rock it like a bad ass). yeah... so i guess that pretty much sums up what's been going on lately. now it's off to homework... fun.

4:25am: I had to change my cell phone number... comment if you want it.

11:11am: i guess i thought meeting people would be hard after being out of the game for so long. last night was just what I needed.

3:45pm: YES!!!!!!!!!!!!
All my fucking hard work paid off and today I got the most incredible job EVER!!!

Nanny/personal assistant for a high profile family.

oh yeahhhhh!

Btw.. i leave to ASPEN with them in a couple of weeks. On a private jet no less. awww life is grand.

5:06pm: Life is wonderful
Seriously my life... as busy as it is... could not be better right now. The ONLY downside is that I don't get to see my friends as often.

My classes are AMAZING! I really feel like for the for time in my life that I've found my calling. I have never done so well (without cheating) and been so interested in my school work. I have gotten 100% on every assignment/test so far. I can't wait to become a teacher and shape young peoples' lives.

My small, close-knit group of friends are all I could ever ask for. Recently when all the cutting out bullshit happened I began to feel like I was short on friends... but I've realized that it's all about quality, not quantity, and the bad have weeded themselves out and my stress level has dropped dramatically. I don't ever need someone's life on my shoulders ever again. The wonderful people who have remained in my life are ALWAYS there for me, never take me for granted and are the most appreciative people I know. And they're fun as hell.

I do however still have a major debt to pay off which I am quickly getting all together to send off to get this out of my life once and for all. To pay off this debt I moved back in with my mom (which isn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be) and work 4 jobs. Yes that's right... 4 jobs. But I love them all and I make bank... all in cash.

I also have the most amazing/understanding/cutest/cuddliest boyfriend in the entire world who loves me just the same. We've made some changes (for the better) in our relationship recently that have helped so much and it feels almost like we're starting over. He's my best friend and my love and everything I could ever ask for in a guy.

So all in all I would have to say that I've done it. I've gone from a manically depressed high school rule-breaker to a consitently happy, school loving sucessful woman. This is exactly how I've wanted to feel for so long and I finally do... and yes... happiness... true happiness... is all it's cracked up to be.

7:19pm: To Paria:
We just want to let you know that we all love you and haven't called so that you can have your rest. please respond whenever you feel up to it. Love you so so so so much!

3:44pm: it's money
saw the island last night with mir and easton, i thought it was a pretty dope movie even though it was 2 1/2 hrs long.

"jesus must love you"

my dad has hired me on a sort of temp person for copywritting, might turn into more work soon which is chill cause i don't have to see him I can do it from home.

anyways, just spending the rest of the day chillin and watching animal planet.

12:23pm: so things are decent but i still need $$$ badly. i used to be the job master but it's tougher these days... oh well it's like having a summer vacation which i'm a big fan of.







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i miss my poe.

9:36am: duuuude!

charlie and the chocolate factory was soooo amazing!!!! had a great time last night with my boy and the girls (poe, becky, mir) I <3 you!

sorry lau, didn't get your message until last night, but are we still on for friday?

i want a squirrel and i want it now!

8:46am: i look like a 1950s house wife.
i love that i took a xanax to go to sleep last night and yet woke up at 8 today, then go grab a drink that looks like a scotch on the rocks and have a cigarette in my robe. after a telemarketer called at 8:30 and asked if i needed any remodels done on the house... i told him that we'd just finished remodeling, that we wouldn't be remodeling again for along time and that i would like to go back to sleep. 8:30!!! who calls at 8:30?

at least this comes out today



!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I <3 Johnny Depp !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


oh yeah, and i'm convinced the world will end December 21, 2012. so i'm having my fun now.

2:02pm: this was on craig's list... just thought it was funny.
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11:34am: BUSH SUCKS.... but everyone knew that already.
So it's really beyond me that how after what happened this morning anyone could support President Bush, especially in regards to the war in Iraq.

The bottom line is that there will always be terrorists and we're not going to know where or when they will strike and killing a bunch of people in one country will not end this.

Although extremely tragic, the London bombings are a perfect example of why Bush's so called plight to end terrorism is bullshit and that there are ulterior motives to the war on Iraq.

IF YOU WANT TO SUPPORT SOMETHING WITH A CLEAR MOTIVE, SUPPORT THE IMPEACHMENT OF PRESIDENT BUSH. IF CLINTON CAN GET IMPEACHED FOR LYING ABOUT A BLOW JOB THEN THERE'S NO DOUBT THAT WE CAN IMPEACH BUSH FOR LYING ABOUT THIS.

11:38am: this weekend has been super fun.. hanging with the peeps.... poe being back, lots of good times at matt and jason's. 4th of july fun + lots of alcohol and attempting to see fireworks. i'd have to say it's been a good weekend. now to get a job!

7:55am: EDC was soooo amazing and i can't wait for nocturnal.
some of the craziest people i've ever seen/met, but also the nicest. so many lightshows!!!! massages! music! dancing... it was crazy!

i quit my job this morning, for 7 an hour it was NOT worth it. so i'm looking again. story of my life.

paria... come home now!!!!

12:30pm: today is edc!!!

now if only someone would call me back before i leave that would be fantastic!

ok... i will post pictures when i can....


SOOO EXCITED!

9:44pm: i have the cutest boyfriend ever!



yeah... he cut off all of his hair today and i think it's the sexy.

6:37am: I'm 19 today.

8:30pm: getting ichy for an apartment, so we went looking today. saw a place that looked like the old apartment but smaller, it was funny. Also found a killer deal on a 2-story guest house which i'm all about and i hope it hasn't been rented yet.

My birthday is in 4 days and it'll be exactly the same as 18... i just know it!



at least i'll get $$$ so i can move out and be happy.


hehe... called for an apartment listing and i thought i accidently called Tracy at our old apartment... turns out i called the VISTA royale and they just happened to hava a female manager with a high voice.

school starts on monday and i'm thrilled. i've been such a bum, well not really, but i've been neglecting my brain.

1:55pm: i'm so happy because it's thursday which = my friday and now i have 3 days to fucking chillllllllllllllll. i'm so exsausted from this week and i need this break sooo bad. i also need to buy my edc tickets still.

i'm going to the dentist in a minute and i'm getting a full consultation to get my ugly teeth pretty... once they're all bleached i'm NEVER TOUCHING A CIGARETTE AGAIN!

maybe they'll knock me out! wouldn't that be great!?!?